that may be part of the problem- i was diagnosed at age of 61...i thought this was an adolescent illness!!!...but as i watch myself function, poorly alot of times, in spite of being forced to quit work and being put on a BiPAP and tried/failed several meds for narcolepsy...
i "watch" myself function/talk about budgets, etc and i get very uncomfortable...can i be faking this???....i feel myself lie down, in the hallway once, and tried on the kitchen floor once but husband redirected me to bed- i can hear for awhile before falling sound sound asleep, but its like i can't/won't move, or think, "I don't care, i wanna go to SLEEP!"....and i feel extremely unsure of myself with numbers (i used to calculate medication doses for patients in my head)...part of me thinks, if my mother came back from the grave she'd whack my upside the head and say: "get hold of yourself!!! PULL yourself together!! and think!!"...and i feel i am sure that i would- i almost wish she would so i could be sure if this is malingering or not...but i have never been a malingerer in any sense of the word before :-/
does anyone else have these self doubts? anyone else think they are just imagining all of this??
or i am i really nuts??
nah, don't answer that last question, just the previous ones
thanks so much!
