Anyone been violent to someone else and not remember it when they have been persistent in trying to wake you up?? Around the time I was fiiiiiiiiinally diagnosed in January, I brought it up to my sleep dr. He didn't really address the issue, but it hasn't been too much of a problem until now.
Maybe a bit too much TMI..but here's the situation
Waking myself up has always been difficult, but I can usually be woken up without too much trouble by another person (sometimes needing a little persistence). Too bad I live alone, though. However friends and family have told me in the past that I sometimes (not too often) become angry and say some pretty nasty things to them, and less frequently have tried to hit/punch when they try to wake me up. They have told me it usually starts verbal and then progresses to more physical. Apparently, I sometimes open my eyes and make contact with them during this. Nothing I've read about N has talked about this...seems more like a parasomnia or REM sleep behavior but not quite as it only happens when provoked. I haven't ever actually succeeded in injuring anyone, thankfully, as they usually give up and/or try again later. So I'm in a new-ish relationship - and I have told the man in my life about N and about this happening sometimes.
Reason I'm concerned is that I haven't succeeded, until a few days ago. After coming home from a party, I barely made it in the door - laid down on the floor and crashed (having slept most of the way home, too). Like normal, my boyfriend was able to convince me to get me up and I ent to bed and was out within seconds. He tried to initiate sex and apparently I was not having it. I became angry, but he thought that I'd wake up and be fine. I did not wake up, and his attempts only made me more angry and then I basically attacked him. Apparently I tried to scratch him, bicycle-kick, bite - pretty much throwing my body in any way i could - my reaction was out of proportion. I don't remember any of that. He finally gave up when I tried to bite him and he moved - it turned into a head-butt instead. I vaguely remember the feeling of being hit in the head...but not trying to bite/headbutt him. He said that I accused him of hitting me in the head. Anyway, as he was moving away from me at this point - I remember looking at him and kicking very hard with BOTH legs and swearing at him to get off/away from me. His hip hit the window, breaking it. Luckily I did not make full contact as he says he really didn't move that far. I don't want to think about what would've happened if I had gotten the full kick in. Anyway, I feel/felt horrible about it. I am very thankful that he is SUPER understanding about N and this recent nonsense (and that he teaches self defense! - haha maybe thats why he thought he could try being persistent even though he had been forewarned!)
Edited by NarcInNY, 13 July 2011 - 09:25 PM.
